I'm writing this in Changi Airport waiting for my Lufthansa flight back to Jakarta. I always thought that I had never be ready for this day... the day I have to leave Singapore for good. Residing for three years in this tiny island, some frequent business visits since six years ago, and family vacation since more than a decade ago; I've been enjoying myself too much. So much that now I know what I really really want. 'Tho I finally decided to suspend my study in Theology from February intake to July, that doesn't mean I have no more feeling on going that way... believe me, my energy of serving God and the church has become even greater than before. But I know that deep down in my heart, I probably not ready for doing this very soon. I don't want to start this wonderful journey with my wounded heart... I have to cure myself... I have to purify myself... Therefore I have decided to resign from my job (and this time is for real...) this New Year and start to look for something beyond it. Be it a volunteer job, social work or just attending weekday masses... I just want to do what I want to do. I will still in charge for some important matters at work, but my routine won't be the same anymore. I will also travel again to Singapore couple of times for business trips but that's only for supervising some jobs. So I think next year would be less stress for me. And more time for God as well.
All I can say is that I'm sad to leave Singapore, but in the meantime I'm also looking forward for my moving to Melbourne... and in between of that, I just put my hope in God and let God have a special room in my life for Him to surprise me.
I'm glad I'm coming back home.
